I am in awe of your strength. I'm sure you have experienced more than I can comprehend. I want you to know that your voice is important, valuable, and needed. Your experiences and feelings are meaningful. I have a grandfather who is a veteran of the Korean War, a Puerto Rican veteran who experienced a lot of trauma and I wish I could help him heal his pain, but he doesn't like to talk about his experiences, and I respect that. Either way, the most important thing is to heal yourself, and take care of your own needs. Best Wishes!